A New Post
A new post... after, what, two months? more than that, probably...
I should be doing French homework, but I really don't want to... I'm avoiding it...
My life has been so boring, it's beyond depressing... go to work, do homework, watch tv, try to read ( even though I can't read anymore because of my extreme lack of concentration, which sucks, considering I am quite the bibliophile). I am just a boring old pile of teenager...
I have no clue what I want to do with my life... I hate the fact that I have to decide so soon... I'm just not ready... I don't know whether to do what I know will make me happy, or to do what I know I'll be successful at.
Growing up, everyone always told me what I should be. The only problem is, they never really agreed. I've had people telling me to become a writer, a scientist, a doctor, an actor, a radio DJ, a psychologist, a teacher, even a pastor, and the list goes on. All of these sound... interesting, but would I want to do these things for the rest of my life? Would I actually like it?
My best marks in school are in the sciences and math... I find these subjects interesting and fun, and I'm good at them, but to me, if I did something in the arts for my life, I would be happier. My parents would never agree. It's not like they're those parents in the movies, telling their kid what to be and how to be it; they just know that the ats aren't stable, and I get that completely. They think that if I am lucky enough to have abilities in the sciences, than I should use them.
I don't know what to do. I'm the worst decision maker.I have trouble deciding what to eat, let alone what to do with my life. I'm freaked out. Seriously freaked out. And then I see all these adults around me, like my parents, ad my coworkers, who just landed in their jobs. They didn't know what they wanted to do with their lives, but theyjust took their paths... do I want to do that, or do I want to know what I want?What is the best way to go about making this decision? How do I know? Is it a gut feeling, like how you apparently feel like you know that that special someone is "the one"? is it the same with your career?
Now that I think about it, jobs and relationships are similar. You have interviews, you get to know each other, sometimes you get a new job, sometimes you stick with the old. Sometimes the job you end up with surprises you...who knows...
All I know it that I am in a constant state of confusion at present, and I just want it to GO AWAY!
I should be doing French homework, but I really don't want to... I'm avoiding it...
My life has been so boring, it's beyond depressing... go to work, do homework, watch tv, try to read ( even though I can't read anymore because of my extreme lack of concentration, which sucks, considering I am quite the bibliophile). I am just a boring old pile of teenager...
I have no clue what I want to do with my life... I hate the fact that I have to decide so soon... I'm just not ready... I don't know whether to do what I know will make me happy, or to do what I know I'll be successful at.
Growing up, everyone always told me what I should be. The only problem is, they never really agreed. I've had people telling me to become a writer, a scientist, a doctor, an actor, a radio DJ, a psychologist, a teacher, even a pastor, and the list goes on. All of these sound... interesting, but would I want to do these things for the rest of my life? Would I actually like it?
My best marks in school are in the sciences and math... I find these subjects interesting and fun, and I'm good at them, but to me, if I did something in the arts for my life, I would be happier. My parents would never agree. It's not like they're those parents in the movies, telling their kid what to be and how to be it; they just know that the ats aren't stable, and I get that completely. They think that if I am lucky enough to have abilities in the sciences, than I should use them.
I don't know what to do. I'm the worst decision maker.I have trouble deciding what to eat, let alone what to do with my life. I'm freaked out. Seriously freaked out. And then I see all these adults around me, like my parents, ad my coworkers, who just landed in their jobs. They didn't know what they wanted to do with their lives, but theyjust took their paths... do I want to do that, or do I want to know what I want?What is the best way to go about making this decision? How do I know? Is it a gut feeling, like how you apparently feel like you know that that special someone is "the one"? is it the same with your career?
Now that I think about it, jobs and relationships are similar. You have interviews, you get to know each other, sometimes you get a new job, sometimes you stick with the old. Sometimes the job you end up with surprises you...who knows...
All I know it that I am in a constant state of confusion at present, and I just want it to GO AWAY!
posted by Alaric at 12/03/2006 08:39:00 PM
2 Comments:
uhhh.... that blog you typed sounded so familiar... it's so... ME! I'm Gemini, I am blessed in both science and arts (languages, history etc), I love languages and history, A LOT, but I'd graduated in Degree of Science! (with Hons mind you, haha...)
Like you, people'd always told me what to do, what I should do and growing up I really didn't have the guts to say NO, or to think what I was about to face if I followed what they said...
so here I am, 24, still wondering what I want in live, haha.... it's pathetic... but at least you are still young, make a wise decision and don't end up like me... I'm still searching, and I got the feeling that something is stored for me in future, but I don't know what it is... just going a mid-life crisis I guess.
But yeah, make wise decision, don't regret it, at least you have chance to take your own path.... good luck!
I happened to read your post and I'll tell you. 10, 20 even 30 years from now you'll never know what the right choice is. But I've been where you are and I'd say do whatever YOU want to do, in the end that's what matters. Money, success and so on these things will come. Take care and all the best...
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